Forgetting with reason

.I get it now. when something happens like the first thing that set off my initial ptsd, it become connected. that's why I keep disconnecting. because there have been so many events attached and compounded from the original wound, whatever that was, my mind blocks out anything I experience that triggers a memory of it, but because so many things happen, even trying to remember why I keep forgetting triggers more forgetting, and my mind keeps making subconscious connections that are compounding how much I compartmentalize and can't access... coping mechanism out of control.