I wish I didn't have such pride issues.. And I wish depression wouldn't prey upon my tendecies to try to view a situation objectively and complete distort my perception to the point that every interpretation of a persons behavior has an extremely obvious paranoid tinge. It's not true that everybody is fake and it's not true that I'm fake and nor was the love that I felt for people and things in my life. I had such horrible nightmares last night that I think involved suicide and possibly witnessing a homicide. Meh. I need to start taking control over my life,otherwise I'm going to completely fall apart.