I'm tired again. I think maybe the transition has taken alot out of me in general,but then when did it truly begin? It's be a long journey, that's for sure. I hope I'm not cheating the learning process.. I continue to shake. Not too long ago, I froze. Part of who I used to be appeared,but given the situation.. I'm not surprised. I panicked. Only in that situation would I haved. He is,after all,the sole link to who I was. As much as he fears the lack of change, I do more. I try to learn and improve,but I'm still a fool; I know that. I still slip,too. That's okay.. I just need to get up and recover,and not dwell on mistakes. I need to not be a hypocrite and follow my own advise. Naiveity.. I need help right now :/ I need guidance