ehhhh...

This is one of those moments where I really just sit and question how the hell I ended up in the position I did. Why? What is it that I feel I'm lacking that I need to keep seeking outside of myself? Why can't I just... accept the pain that's a part of living for me and get used to it? Why do I feel like that pain isn't worth living through, even for all of the people in my life, at times? Well soon enough I'll be bombarded by reasons, and I won't have anything to do with them besides dwell.

Bring on total sobriety.