Oh my..

I have so much work to do. I have a book to read, a 2-5 page essay to write ON that book, another essay to complete, a lab analysis to finish, and a lab write-up to do on that same lab. Should be fun. Procrastinating always adds more challenge into work that would otherwise be so tedious and repetitive... But it is quite sad when the student is the one assisting the teacher (who previously had taught AP English nonetheless) in writing an essay comparing and contrasting The Crucible and The Scarlet Letter in addition to explaining the significance and reason that American writers like to use Salem and the Witchcraft Trials(specifically) as a backdrop to writing stories, and the reccuring theme and of it I discovered to be hypocritical. So sad.. and in front of the whole class at that! She expressed a sort of praise that seemed slightly amusing to me, considering the true feelings and thoughts she must have been masking while saying those words. Call me paranoid, but this is what I've come to know. By saying I was more than ready for college, she must have been trying to excuse her own inadequacy as a teacher, having been outwitted by a student(who had a "D" in her class...) Hum. I suppose I am a little pompous. At least I can be a times. I find it all a little ridiculous; these daily occurances. Well, I may be failing my Spanish III class right now, but my reasoning is that I already have the required credits necessary for graduation and my main purpose is to learn the language. Otherwise I would have transferred out of Grigsby's class, which is known to be the hardest class on campus. Despite the fact that my fluidity of the spoken language, and the complexity of my written expressions in Spanishm far excels the work of many of my fellow classmates' and is at the level of her AP class and very possibly matches the level of my english work to an extent, the petty assignments aren't worth the effort in my opinion, while my time could be spent working on something much more fulfilling :\ To explain more properly, I do try, but it involves actions such as looking up vocabulary and verb tenses, or the way certain words fit into context through online translators for the purpose of writing my own essays or poetry in Spanish.. just to improve my personal comprehension on the topic. Though I suppose I'll try next semester in the way that is deemed "passing" by the scholarly system. But hey, one thing I put at least a little true effort into (while I'm in class, and it shows) is band. Sight-reading is completely a hit or miss, and I'm particularly good at recognizing patterns within formulas, such as those used in math. And really, music is just a combination of math and acquired reading ability. My ability of playing of the instrument comes naturally with the slightest bit of effort and attentiveness. The others simply don't try, or otherwise put off exerting any effort until it is absolutely mandatory. No, I don't take private lessons, and honestly, I don't even practice at home that often. But I am competitive. I believe this is one of my greatest faults, and it's a aspect of my personality that could create tension or negative feelings between me and others, as it had in my past. But it's something that will carry me that much farther in whatever path I eventually become set on pursuing. Ah, the benefits of ambition.

My song

looking at a still frame
my eyes and soul are far away
and it feels as if I'm stuck
in a still frame -that's my luck

because the memories from those days
are still yet to fade away
and I'm not able to make a sound
as I'm being pressed straight through the ground.

(*)Chorus:
I gave my heart for you
admitted fears, too
standing so close, through and through
And I was left to drown in blue

No; we didn't soar, we didn't fly
my brilliance you willed to let die
And I alone tried, blind to your lies
why do you hide? why do you hide..?

It's shown through time that people change;
we're all mixed up and rearranged.
strange,how with our jumbled souls
we've been forced to switch roles

*chorus*

Bridge: So now, now tell me how
how we had broken, voided all our faith?
Like a broken record on a loop
you say things will stay this way..

condescending, but let me ask
if your amphibious, being so vicious
cold-blooded and exceedingly oblivious
this unique script you make...

*chorus*

I've learned that even though people say
that love is powerful and contrasts hate..
frankly, hate is nothing more than passion
to which love closely relates

now I know you're the one who'd kill
death of love, left not to feel
'cause apathy counters love in vain
tattered hearts you wish to gain

End-Yet no one person can be blamed
the victim's a fool for playing the game
well,we know now that nothing was gained
and you'll never see my pain!

My comment on the single video on youtube that I'd seen all day that was not littered with talk of Twilight..

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"I am sooo surprised all those freakin Twilight fangirls didn't come and attack this video saying "Oh, this reminds me of this character/scene/whatever." Good. I want to stab those people in the face, because they keep invading good music videos and then rambling on about Twilight crap in the comments. "Which vampire is cuter? @.@" Really, I wish they would just gtfo. The book was overrated. It was mediocre at the most, and pretty damn boring most of the time. And I heard the movie sucked ass anyway. I wonder how much longer this stupid fad is going to keep going.. meh. Okay, I'm done ranting -^o^- *phew* Sorry, bout that. If you agree, come rant in response. I'd love to hate on it with someone. Lol. "