Oh my..

I have so much work to do. I have a book to read, a 2-5 page essay to write ON that book, another essay to complete, a lab analysis to finish, and a lab write-up to do on that same lab. Should be fun. Procrastinating always adds more challenge into work that would otherwise be so tedious and repetitive... But it is quite sad when the student is the one assisting the teacher (who previously had taught AP English nonetheless) in writing an essay comparing and contrasting The Crucible and The Scarlet Letter in addition to explaining the significance and reason that American writers like to use Salem and the Witchcraft Trials(specifically) as a backdrop to writing stories, and the reccuring theme and of it I discovered to be hypocritical. So sad.. and in front of the whole class at that! She expressed a sort of praise that seemed slightly amusing to me, considering the true feelings and thoughts she must have been masking while saying those words. Call me paranoid, but this is what I've come to know. By saying I was more than ready for college, she must have been trying to excuse her own inadequacy as a teacher, having been outwitted by a student(who had a "D" in her class...) Hum. I suppose I am a little pompous. At least I can be a times. I find it all a little ridiculous; these daily occurances. Well, I may be failing my Spanish III class right now, but my reasoning is that I already have the required credits necessary for graduation and my main purpose is to learn the language. Otherwise I would have transferred out of Grigsby's class, which is known to be the hardest class on campus. Despite the fact that my fluidity of the spoken language, and the complexity of my written expressions in Spanishm far excels the work of many of my fellow classmates' and is at the level of her AP class and very possibly matches the level of my english work to an extent, the petty assignments aren't worth the effort in my opinion, while my time could be spent working on something much more fulfilling :\ To explain more properly, I do try, but it involves actions such as looking up vocabulary and verb tenses, or the way certain words fit into context through online translators for the purpose of writing my own essays or poetry in Spanish.. just to improve my personal comprehension on the topic. Though I suppose I'll try next semester in the way that is deemed "passing" by the scholarly system. But hey, one thing I put at least a little true effort into (while I'm in class, and it shows) is band. Sight-reading is completely a hit or miss, and I'm particularly good at recognizing patterns within formulas, such as those used in math. And really, music is just a combination of math and acquired reading ability. My ability of playing of the instrument comes naturally with the slightest bit of effort and attentiveness. The others simply don't try, or otherwise put off exerting any effort until it is absolutely mandatory. No, I don't take private lessons, and honestly, I don't even practice at home that often. But I am competitive. I believe this is one of my greatest faults, and it's a aspect of my personality that could create tension or negative feelings between me and others, as it had in my past. But it's something that will carry me that much farther in whatever path I eventually become set on pursuing. Ah, the benefits of ambition.