My head burns

fuck what everybody else says, I know the truth. all I do is hurt people. people look up to me, but for what? I'm so flawed, so horrible... all I do is fucking hurt people. And they try to act nice and suppress things because I'm so fragile, but I know my fate. I'll just end up alone, and in hell, and I'll stay there. why? because I condemn myself. I don't deserve love. I don't. I deserve pain. I deserve this, yet I'm so weak, I can't even take it. people think they're not good enough for me, well I'm not good enough for them. I'm not good enough for anything. and I can't take this pain. I can't... I can't fucking take it. I'm not strong, they were all wrong... so wrong... I'm a failure, and that's all I ever will be.

And when I finally understand

it is then that I will again awake to ignorance. When I am in total ignorance once more, it is then I will again awake to understanding.