Now let me tell YOU how much being 51-50'd twice within the period of the same week is... not fun. Especially with the psychiotic lady down the hall you think is speaking intelligently until you learn over closer starts making animal noises, and the ex-con in the room next to you, just after being restraited decides to piss everywhere as a way of sticking it to the man. Or who knows, maybe he really just had to take a piss at a very inconvenient time? In any case, it was not to my benefit, and I heard all the nurses laughing and gossiping, and I just wanted to scream DON'T YOU FUCKING REALIZE SOME OF US ARE HERE AGAINST OUR WILL AND WE DON'T WANT TO PUT WITH THE NOISE OF YOUR PETTY GOSSIP ANY MORE THAN THE FOUL MOUTHED MAN WHO JUST PISSED HIMSELF IN THE NEXT ROOM. But I didn't. Very rarely do I speak my true opinion. I mainly just observe others', and if we share one, GREAT, I can bring up a topic and hopefully have more than a one-sided conversation, and that topic may lead to another, and as I get a feel for their temprament, the way they will generally respond to things based upon the strength of the preferences as indicated through verbal response and even microexpression, I can poke at carrying the conversation to a slightly deeper level. This part is the one where I really start pulling things out of the other person's psych they didn't remember were there or were trying to forget, but I remember usually, these are a essential ingredient in the total unraveling of a person.
Identifying, trust, dysruptive sense of self-worth, empathy, fears, memories(personal experiences), preferences(all kinds), philosophic mindset(receptive, dejecting, comparative, compatible, reflective, Echoic in certain principles) beliefs, adherence to internet compass...
These things are what flavor what we observe in personality and observe in a "person"... But what really is the person? Holos = oneness
perhaps this is an equal amount of void as matter, or a certain amount of matter is leaving from the void, then when the cycle retracts, it will replace probably anti-matter residing on the other side of the void, or blackhole. Like some of those perpetual moving objects... the universe expanding and contracting could be just like that... meaning there may be other sides to black holes... How many other sides... how many factual universe exactly the same ordeal... a motion that only in appearance, ceases, begins, and continues... but never truly began in the first place.
I personally believe any type of order and linear time are illusions...
Time= distance x rate
Okay, besides time being an order we artificially impose on society, it does seen to reprent the rate void could be dislocated within a period of time, using different types of stardized speedometers, timed automatedly, and obstacles. The obstacle (and all of its components) that go through the change are void, and maybe void is even the tiniest substance to exist, and maybe seed of all things as perfect distruction of molecule when there's no place to move as it vibrates would cause an explosion, or even the perception of implosion in the long term, as gravity returns everything to its due place. But what is Gravity? It is a "force" ?
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
2:09amAh. I try not to let it bother me. It usually doesn't.Report ·
2:09amI won't try to overdramatize the fact that does on occasionbut please know I care for you as a friendand if you ever need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry onI'll always try to be there to the best of my ability.Report 2:10amThanks.Report ·
2:11amI feel like some people think I'm addressing them personally when I say these things.Report ·
2:11am"Addressing them personally"?.Report ·
2:12amand in a way I am, but I'm not exclusive to one person, y'know... yeah, with the things I've told them and the promises I've made.Report ·
2:13amAh. Yeah, I know. I've seen at least one of your videos on Youtube. .Report ·
2:14amI still mean those words personally to youbrb.Report ·
2:14amk.Report ·
2:18amfor years I've been attempt to pursue a path of spiritual growth.Report ·
2:18amHow's it been working?.Report ·
2:19amwell, it's hard its ups and downs, but seeing somebody was in smiling, see purpose in life again, eyes-brimmed with hopeit's because of people respect othersand one side presents a more logical or sound point than their own mind has supplied them withthey have a paradigm shift and witch perspective to match the other one*switch.Report ·
2:22amOk, you lost me. Even at the first sentence, I was confused.Report ·
2:22amI've been having a lot of ups and downs with mood.Report ·
2:23amAfter that.Report · 2:23amBut seeing somebody(else) smiiling, watching them rescognize purpose in their life again, and seeing their eyes-brimming with hopethat gives me energyand more hopeand when people respect each other (after identifying with them) if two were debating a point, and one offered a thesis that was more valid and made sense to both of them, they would then procede to synthesize their belief systems, and in a way, it becomes survival of the fittest for the simplest, most sensical theories to be valuedisn't this like brainwashing people?.Report ·
2:27amWhat does the fourth large messa- Brainwashing people who choose to be brainwashed, in my opinion.Report ·
2:28amwhat were you going to ask before?.Report ·
2:28amWhat does the fourth large message have to do with the first three?.Report ·
2:30amit's the potential of what could happen when two people have been through two similar, difficult past experieces may act upon discovering they were only as alone as they were scared to reach out.Report ·
2:31amYes, but that has nothing to do with the first three things you said or I don't see it at least.Report ·
2:31amit's all what I want to cause.Report ·
2:32amOh. Ok. People need an instruction manual for talking to you. It can kinda difficult.Report ·
2:32amespecially when I'm almost certainly maniceven in my normally typing, it tends to come out irregulardoes this all bore you?.Report · 2:34amI don't connect with it. It's not boring me more than I already am, but I can't say I'm interested either.Report ·
2:35amI know it's illogical, but I feel sadness because you aren't emotionally invested as well as mentally engaged.Report ·
2:37amltm, sorry. I don't get emotional if possible. I don't like emotions for the most part.Report ·
2:38amI've thought that before toobefore I realize how useful it can be with memoryand that not dealing with the doesn't make them go away.Report ·
2:39amDoesn't change that I don't like them.Report ·
2:43amwhy don't you like them, anyways?.Report ·
2:44amBeing sad sucks, being angry makes it more likely that you'll do things you'll regret, and happiness is short-lived.Report ·
2:45amthat may have been true for you lifeso farbut there are two types of all of those thingsand their reason for being makes a difference too, because it could be a potential issue to resolve if there is a triggerwhat's your definition of "short-lived", anyways?.Report ·
2:47amDoesn't last long.
2:09amI won't try to overdramatize the fact that does on occasionbut please know I care for you as a friendand if you ever need someone to talk to, or a shoulder to cry onI'll always try to be there to the best of my ability.Report 2:10amThanks.Report ·
2:11amI feel like some people think I'm addressing them personally when I say these things.Report ·
2:11am"Addressing them personally"?.Report ·
2:12amand in a way I am, but I'm not exclusive to one person, y'know... yeah, with the things I've told them and the promises I've made.Report ·
2:13amAh. Yeah, I know. I've seen at least one of your videos on Youtube. .Report ·
2:14amI still mean those words personally to youbrb.Report ·
2:14amk.Report ·
2:18amfor years I've been attempt to pursue a path of spiritual growth.Report ·
2:18amHow's it been working?.Report ·
2:19amwell, it's hard its ups and downs, but seeing somebody was in smiling, see purpose in life again, eyes-brimmed with hopeit's because of people respect othersand one side presents a more logical or sound point than their own mind has supplied them withthey have a paradigm shift and witch perspective to match the other one*switch.Report ·
2:22amOk, you lost me. Even at the first sentence, I was confused.Report ·
2:22amI've been having a lot of ups and downs with mood.Report ·
2:23amAfter that.Report · 2:23amBut seeing somebody(else) smiiling, watching them rescognize purpose in their life again, and seeing their eyes-brimming with hopethat gives me energyand more hopeand when people respect each other (after identifying with them) if two were debating a point, and one offered a thesis that was more valid and made sense to both of them, they would then procede to synthesize their belief systems, and in a way, it becomes survival of the fittest for the simplest, most sensical theories to be valuedisn't this like brainwashing people?.Report ·
2:27amWhat does the fourth large messa- Brainwashing people who choose to be brainwashed, in my opinion.Report ·
2:28amwhat were you going to ask before?.Report ·
2:28amWhat does the fourth large message have to do with the first three?.Report ·
2:30amit's the potential of what could happen when two people have been through two similar, difficult past experieces may act upon discovering they were only as alone as they were scared to reach out.Report ·
2:31amYes, but that has nothing to do with the first three things you said or I don't see it at least.Report ·
2:31amit's all what I want to cause.Report ·
2:32amOh. Ok. People need an instruction manual for talking to you. It can kinda difficult.Report ·
2:32amespecially when I'm almost certainly maniceven in my normally typing, it tends to come out irregulardoes this all bore you?.Report · 2:34amI don't connect with it. It's not boring me more than I already am, but I can't say I'm interested either.Report ·
2:35amI know it's illogical, but I feel sadness because you aren't emotionally invested as well as mentally engaged.Report ·
2:37amltm, sorry. I don't get emotional if possible. I don't like emotions for the most part.Report ·
2:38amI've thought that before toobefore I realize how useful it can be with memoryand that not dealing with the doesn't make them go away.Report ·
2:39amDoesn't change that I don't like them.Report ·
2:43amwhy don't you like them, anyways?.Report ·
2:44amBeing sad sucks, being angry makes it more likely that you'll do things you'll regret, and happiness is short-lived.Report ·
2:45amthat may have been true for you lifeso farbut there are two types of all of those thingsand their reason for being makes a difference too, because it could be a potential issue to resolve if there is a triggerwhat's your definition of "short-lived", anyways?.Report ·
2:47amDoesn't last long.
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