To be honest...

The fact that my conceptual understanding is usually alligned with truth scares the HELL out of me. Because I have this awareness that nothing remains... so I fear growing attached... be it to people, to ideas, to this state of consciosness, to the moment.. though the moment is probably the closest we could come to a constant... the never ending, always changing moment... I dunno. It makes me feel so alone sometimes.. so alone. But we're truly, in essence, all the same.. I can't let myself forget that. When consciousness fades, we will once again become one.. only to reawaken to our collective ignorance that we may neither will, nor observe.... The truth doesn't necessary have reason.. and some things we can't understand... yet it saddens me we always believe the argument that makes the most sense, I mean.... sometimes the truth really doesn't make sense. Consciously I know there's nothing to fear... but my ego won't permit that. Damn ego. Why won't you conform to my understanding? Oh yeah, because it's not beneficial to your existence and truth is a menace to you.... Oh well.