Huh... Nobody is really completely aware of the war going on inside of me lately.. Which is w/e. I try my hardest not to dwell on it..
..but there are times at night I cry,times that I can't no matter how hard I try, and times I wish I could stop breathing and die,which some of those times I actually tried...
alas, I'm still here,to battle another day. Irritating as it all may be, I have to keep on. Anything could happen on any day, and lately, I am anxious because I feel as if I am always waiting for something bad to happen. It's all surreal,like a never ending dream and I'm a puppet,compelled by the strings of fate. Maybe I'll turn into myself like before